"I Dreamed A Dream In Times Gone By"

As my acting experience widens, I thought it would be fitting to jot down some roles I would love to get the opportunity to play... next year at Theatre by the Lake we get the opportunity to take part in a musical, favourites for this being 'Sweeney Todd', 'Grease', 'Wicked' and 'Annie'. I would love to be in all of these (except maybe Wicked, as I've never seen it).

These are some roles I would LOVE to play in musicals:

Sweeney Todd: Demon Barber Of Fleet Street - Mrs. Lovett
Annie - Grace; Miss. Hannigan
Grease - Rizzo
Oliver! - Nancy
Mamma Mia! - Sophie; Rosie
Glee - Rachel Berry
Hairspray - Amber Von Tussle; Penny Pingleton
Moulin Rouge - Satine

"A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed."

First post in AGES!! So, I patched things up with Charli and Thom... we're friends again and to be honest it's like we never spent 3/4 of a year apart. It just shows how strong our friendship once was. We've gone back to talking about anything and everything just like old times. And I have a new friend called Pippa who is like my best friend! She's amazing, we can talk about anything and everything and not care :) xx

Also, an update... Niall and I are no longer together. He dumped me 15-9-2010 (17 months after I asked him out) ... it was a good ride and I won't go into complete detail just yet of how this break up effected me... let's just say I was really bad for a while but then I realised hey, he's not worth it. Screw him. So ... I dropped it. It was still hard having to deal with the property of his I still own... and vice versa... but it's fine so far....

Now I've moved on. He could boil his head in the Styx and I wouldn't care. He's welcome to his slut of an ex he is now dating :)

And I have bigger (metaphorical) fish to fry :)

"The One That Got Away.."

Summer after high school when we first met
We make out in you mustang to radio head
And on my 18th birthday we bought matching tattoos
Used to steal your parent's liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day i'd be losing you

In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises be us against the world
In another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away.

I was [?] you were my johnny cash
Never one without the other we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you I put those records on...woe
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you down town singin the blues
It's time to face the music i'm no longer your muse

But in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises be us against the world
In another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away.

The one the one the one

The one that got away.

All his money can't buy me a time machine. no
Can't replace you with a million rings. no
I shoulda told you what you meant to me. woe
Cause now I pay the price.

In another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises be us against the world
In another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away.

The one, the one, the one

In another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away
The one that got away



Guess what happened to me in the past month? :(

"Schoolbag In Hand, She Leaves Home In The Early Morning, Waving Goodbye With An Absent-Minded Smile"

Well today was a total waste of time!! I got up bright an early ready to go the my first day at sixth form - the first day of proper government education for 4 years. Picture this, got my school bag packed - 4 notebooks, pencil case, reading book, drink, money for lunch - and then I get there to find we're only staying for assembly! You can imagine how pissed off I was! We sat through an hour long assembly about rules and regulations, were given a timetable and then we were sent home. I'm so far hating the lack of organisation!!!

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

" They Might Be Bigger, But We're Faster And Never Scared "

I haven't blogged in a while. A lot has happened, but truth be told I haven't found suitable lyrics to entitle with. I swear Monday night will be a LONG post about my first day at SIXTH FORM!!!!

For now, I shall leave you with my current favourite song and life-lines. (This is the song I'm relating to at the moment. The bit in BOLD is the bit I most relate to.)

CHANGE
Taylor Swift

And it's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it's all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you're getting sick of it

But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!
We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

So we've been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
We're getting stronger now from things they never found
They might be bigger but we're faster and never scared

You can walk away and say we don't need this
But there's something in your eyes says we can beat this

'Cause these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win

We'll sing hallelujah!
We'll sing hallelujah! Oh

Tonight we stand up on our knees
To fight for what we worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it's the fight of our lives
Will we stand up champions tonight?

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution, throw your hands up, 'cause we never gave in

We'll sing hallelujah!
We sang hallelujah!
Hallelujah!

"I've Been Hurt So Many Times, Lets Be Realistic I'm Only A Statistic To You."

Just a little blog post to say - I'm not cut out for being the only girl in a household! This weekend Mum went away and immediately I sorta automatically was given her role. I did some cleaning, all the cooking, and occupying my brother yesterday whilst she wasn't there. I'm not complaining - it was just a shock.

Anywho :) How's everybody ?




(Blog title: Statistics by Madina Lake)

"Here We Are At The End, Say Goodbye To All Your Friends. Here We Go Watching The Sun Go Round, Sitting On A Rooftop, Making Time Stop...."

Just a little blog to say; sometimes the choices we make are heartbreaking, but most of the time they work out for the better. Every cloud has a silver lining, right?

Recently I've done a lot of thinking : A LOT of thinking. About those people I used to call friends. I know around February and March I did a lot of angry posts, and bi-polar posts about how I didn't need my friends to be happy and that I wouldn't spare a thought for them, nor would I miss them.

Well... the first part was true.

Truth be told, I miss them more than a heart misses a beat.
I miss laughing with them about Alex Davies' hairstyle.
I miss swooning over people in bands and pretending we were them...
I miss driving two hours to see them, feeling excited and planning what to do the entire way.
I miss going into town and buying the most random things.
I miss sitting in parks and 'boy watching'.
I miss eating candy in the rain.
I miss having those heart to hearts only a friend can provide.
I miss sharing clothes and make up.
I miss silly little arguments about whether the string on a guitar is a or c.
I miss singing loudly and out of tune to songs.
I miss getting ready for parties together.
I miss dying each other's hair.
I miss going to the cinema and laughing in unison at the film.
I miss being criticised for my weirdness.
I miss crying together over past relationships.
I miss watching chick flicks and eating ice cream.
I miss laying out on the grass and writing songs.
I miss pretending to be three years younger to get a bus ride cheaper.
I miss my feet hurting from epic shopping trips.
I miss playing top trumps in the back of a car.
I miss eating chocolate coated strawberries (and sticking our heads in the chocolate fountain)
I miss getting drunk and dancing in heels on a wall.
I miss three of us sharing a single bed.
I miss complaining about the lack of space in said bed.
I miss walking miles to a skate ramp and getting stuck at the top of it.
I miss random phone calls to random brother's mates.
I miss buying childish cups from Claires accessories and refusing to part from them.
I miss pretending to be said random brother and his friend.
I miss playing little big planet and making it an epic movie.
I miss dressing up randomly.
I miss photoshoots.
I miss shooting music videos in the woods.
I miss rolling around the football pitch and getting filthy.

I miss last summer, and all it should have been, and all it wasn't. The tears, the heartaches, the laughter, the smiles, the dancing, the singing, the groaning, the fights, the hugs, the talks, the shouts, the stupidness, the sensibleness.

The friends that once were, and never could be again.

RIP last summer.

"It's the end of the summer, it's the end of it all. Those days are gone, it's over now. We're moving on...."




Now who will wipe away my tears??



(Blog Title and Extract: End Of The Summer - Theory of a Deadman)

"I Am A Vampire, I Am A Vampire"

"I CAN STILL SMELL IT!!"

Let me explain. We went to the woods today - me and Emily - and we played Eclipse for a bit (having been to see it on Saturday night). I was being Jasper and Emily was being her created character Heart, who drank human blood but didn't tell me.

The game went like this :

Heart feeds whilst Jasper hunts. Heart is Jasper's sister, so they meet up again.

Jasper: I can smell human blood.

JASPER sniffs the air confusedly.

Heart: A human must have cut themselves on a branch or something...

JASPER sniffs more.

Jasper: Suppose

The pair flit.

Jasper: I can still smell it!!

~


So the idea was hatched about New Moon... the bit where Jasper tries to kill Bella over blood.. Emmott drags Jasper away, but then Jasper appears on the other side of the window, pressed against it - JASPER: I CAN STILLL SMELL IT!!! - Emmott drags Jasper away again - JASPER: NO NO NO!!

That night, Bella has a nightmare about Victoria. There is a noise at the window and Bella sits up.. Jasper appears : I CAN STILL SMELL IT!!!




You had to be there...


WOO!! TEAM JASPER!

"If You Still Care You'll Never Let Me Know"

Quite a long one, I'm afraid.

So Iona tried to get back into contact. She text my mum saying 'This may be a bit too much to ask, but could you put me in contact with Millie. I realise how hideous we all acted'. So I decided to give her a chance... hear her out. So I contacted her on Yahoo.

This is what I said:
This is so hard for me, actually talking to you after so long of thinking I'm better off without you and the others. Thing is I wanna forgive all and be friends with you again so bad, but truth be told I don't know if I can bring myself to be hurt so much again. The friendship we had was so bloody amazing, I lay in bed when I can't sleep most nights thinking of last summer and being in Charli's bedroom and getting ready for the Murder Mystery - dying your hair blue then grey. I look back on all the pictures regularly... but each picture brings the scars back to fruition as well as the happiness. I guess the issue is trust, and if you all could badmouth me so much on that facebook comment branch, then what did you say about me with each other? Friends are supposed to be there for each other ALL the time, and friends are supposed to be supportive and happy for other friends. Niall doesn't want me to be even writing this - with good intentions and plenty of reasons - but I figured no harm has really ever come from a few words. Ha.. lie of the century. I don't know if I can put myself in such a - now apparent - vulnerable position again. I don't know if I can ever really trust any friends as much as I trusted you guys. I don't know if what happened will ever happen again.... insert Iona's answer here.

So many times I've thought about getting back in contact with you again, but then I remember all the hurtful words and I stop myself. Maybe we should give it a shot - just me and you. NOT Thom and definitely not Tess. Not sure about Charli yet... but just you for now. Lets see what happens.


And then two days later she replied:
i'd love that. After we fell out i had a massive breakdown it was our fault, and i deserved it. I never wanted to hurt you :/ i'm sorting my life out at the minute and i'm not a bitch like i used to be, but i'm still nonie (: xx


So I replied:
Maybe we can give it a go then. I've changed an awful lot too. I'm much more confident with myself and happy with who I am and where I am. I've stopped being so dependent on people and I've decided to be a kid, not a grown up, because I realise one reason why you lot got all wound up was because I was being all Mumsy and kinda controlling, for which I apologise. It was just because I cared so much. When me and Niall nearly fell out bigtime because of it I realised I needed to take a step back and take it easy. :)

She didn't reply for a while, so I sent her one of my msn addresses (one I don't use much) and we got talking. (This was earlier today) To begin with we treated it like back when we first met over msn, via Charli. We got on alright, not much awkwardness. Reintroduced ourselves, 'Hey, I'm Millie. I'm sixteen and I'm a drama freak. I follow the Olympian religion and love Percy Jackson' and that worked great. But then we broke for tea and when we both came back we got onto the subject of how Thom, Tess and Charli changed and evolved (or devolved) over the past months. Thom is still a diva and has now lured Iona into the mirror trap he once encased me into. I was warning her about what he's capable of, but her replies were in his defence. I was saddened because I remember when I was once like that. Then we got onto the subject of Niall and I realised I'm not strong enough to get sucked into her world again. Immediately when she started talking about herself trying to 'be less depressive' I felt my chest begin to tighten once more and my happiness flowing away.

So I'm throwing in the towel, for good this time. I'm sorry, but peace pacts are obviously not how I play in this war ... learnt from the Goddess Athena.

So this is the pawn signing out once and for all from this chess board. Thom (King) is impossible to put into check whilst his queen (Iona) is by his side. He manipulates her with sweet words - words that instead of enchant, ensnare and pull her down, down, down. Tess and Charli, the rook and knight, will never give up their posts, but are as disposable as tonights pizza wrapping.

So long black and white chess board, hello colourful world.

Hey, I just hatched an idea for a short story.

Toodle oo, back to happy me.

Pawn to 3-dom. ;)



(Title: Snuff by Slipknot)

"When You Need Someone To Save You When You Think You're Gonna Drown, Just Wrap Your Arms Around Me And Pull Me DOWN" (Time To Say Goodbye)

Some lyrics for the ex friends who are trying to get back in contact... here's something dedicated to you. The bit at the end is highlighted in bold because that's the most relatable... :)

(Time To Say Goodbye by Simple Plan)

Youtube link here so you can hear it : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1O3cPp3oX4A

I just don't want to waste another day
I'm trying to make things right
But you shove it in my face
And all those things you've done to me I can't erase
And I can't keep this inside
It's time to say goodbye

On the first day that I met you
I should have known to walk away
I should have told you you were crazy
And disappear without a trace
But instead I stood there waiting
Hoping you would come around
But you always found a way to let me down

[Chorus]
It's time to say goodbye
(I just don't want to waste another day)
It's time to say goodbye
(Cause things will never be the same)
It's time to say goodbye
(You make me think I need to walk away)
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye

After all the things I've done for you
You never tried to do the same
It's like you always play the victim
And I'm the one you always blame
When you need someone to save you
When you think you're going to drown
(Think you're going to drown)
You just grab your arms around me and pull me down

[Chorus]
It's time to say goodbye
(I just don't want to waste another day)
It's time to say goodbye
(Cause things will never be the same)
It's time to say goodbye
(You make me think I need to walk away)
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye

Now I'm gone
It's too late
You can't fix
Your mistakes
I was trying to save you from you
So you scream
So you cry
I can see
Through your lies
You're just trying to change me
(Trying to change me)

Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me
But I think you need to know
You're weighing on my shoulders
And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye

"Without Love, Life Is Rock 'N' Roll Without A Drummer"

I just love this song... so very much! And I can kinda relate to some of it.
I WANNA ACT IN HAIRSPRAY SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I might sing Without Love for my Alice In Wonderland audition... or I Can Hear The Bells... or Welcome To The 60's...

Hmm... which do you think??


Without Love..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EjIEDlg-UWc
LINK: Once i was a selfish fool
Who never understood
never looked inside myself
Though on the outside, i looked good!
Then we met and you made me
The man i am today
Tracy, i'm in love with you
No matter what you weigh
'Cause...

LINK - TRACY(& ENSEMBLE)
Without love
Life is like the seasons with
No summer
Without love
Life is rock 'n' roll without
A drummer
Tracy, i'll be yours forever
'Cause I never wanna be
Without love
Tracy, never set me free
No, i ain't lyin'
Never set me free, Tracy,
No, no, no!!


SEAWEED
Living in the ghetto
Black is everywhere ya go
Who'd 've thought i'd love a girl
With skin as white as winter's snow

PENNY
In my ivory tower
Life was just a hostess snack
But now i've tasted chocolate
And i'm never going back

PENNY & SEAWEED & ENSEMBLE
'Cause without love
Life is like a beat that you can't follow
Without love
Life is doris day at the Apollo
Darling, i'll be yours forever
'Cause i never wanna be
Without love
So darlin never set me free

PENNY & SEAWEED
Oh, I'm yours forever
Never set me free

PENNY & SEAWEED & ENSEMBLE
No, no, no!

LINK
If i'm left without my babydoll
I don't kno wat ill do

TRACY
Link, i've got to break out
So that i can get my hands on you

SEAWEED
And girl, if i can't touch you
and i'm gonna lose control

PENNY
Seaweed, you're my black white knight
I've found my blue-eyed soul

SEAWEED & ENSEMBLE
Sweet freedom is our goal

LINK
Trace, i wanna kiss ya!

TRACY
Let me out at the next toll

ALL
'Cause without love

SEAWEED
Life is like a prom that won't invite us

ALL
Without love

LINK
Life's getting my big break and laryngitis

ALL
Without love

PENNY
Life's a '45' when you can't buy it

ALL
Without love

TRACY
Life is like my mother on a diet

ALL
Like a week that's only mondays
Only ice cream never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"

Darlin i'll be yours forever
'Cause i never wanna be
Without love
now you've captured me
without love
I surrender happily
without love
Seaweed never set me free
no no no
I ain't lying
never set me free
no no no
no i don't wanna live
without love
Darlin you have best believed me,
never leave me
without love!


I Can Hear The Bells
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txciAos9R_w


Welcome To The Sixties....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V97XiAdsVXc&feature=related


Which do you think?

"Truth Be Told, I Miss You. And Truth Be Told, I'm Lying...!"

So, this is a song that I listen to when I start missing my old friends. The lyrics are so full of anger and hurt at being rejected by Tyson (singer's) ex girfriend, but it can also be put to friends, as I do.

Please read the lyrics, it's an amazing song.

(And it's also one of the only songs I can sing ALL the way through.. in TUNE .. wonder why :L:L mostly the songs I can sing are the ones that mostly appeal... anyway... enjoy the angst... and also, please try to see how I can relate.)


GIVES YOU HELL
by THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now wheres you picket fence love
And wheres that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in my eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, your just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and sing along oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it will treat you...
WELL!

"You're The Voice I Hear Inside My Head, The Reason That I'm Singing."

I haven't blogged for ages. It's really weird how I blog loads in one day, and then don't for weeks. Maybe there's a syndrome for it... 'blogalotthennotalot syndrome'. :L

I really need more followers on my blog... if people could refer??

Thanks x

(Blog Title: Gotta Find You by Joe Jonas)

"I'm Sorry I Can't Be Perfect"

Just a song dedicated to my Daddy :-

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect


By Simple Plan

SEE THE SONG OF THE WEEK TOWARDS THE TOP OF THE BLOG FOR THE SONG & IT'S VIDEO

It's for a particular reason, but it kinda hurts to go too much into it, so please just read these lyrics and appreciate ... :)

"But Uh-Oh Those Summer Nights."

I gladly welcome in the Summer and I hope you'll join me! Usually in the past I've been hateful towards the summer - I hated getting hot and sweaty and bothered, heck, still do. But I've discovered four little things that are going to make this summer so much better. Number 1 : Deoderant - super strong, anti persperant! Number 2 : Aldi's Brasseries' Shandy - god that stuff is nice, and hardly any alcohol. Number 3 : A diet to lessen my stomach and thighs - it's called 'No Bread!' And Number 4 : Bikini's and thin skirts - very helpful. Never before have I dared to wear a bikini, but today I bought a lovely 50's style one, kinda like that which Katy Perry wears on the cover of her album. I haven't tried it on yet, but hopefully i'll feel confident in it. Oh, and a bonus Number 5 : Venus disposable razors... very very VERY helpful for days when I want to lay in my cossie and sunbathe!

Bring on the sunshine!!


(Blog Title: Summer Nights - Grease)

"Don't You Bring Around A Cloud To Rain On My Parade!"

Heya :)

I have a LOT to tell you, but not a lot I can write online I'm afraid... :( shame. Erm, what have I been up to?
Not much really. I went to home ed group yesterday and we held a HomeEdGroup Election. I was in a party with Emily.

We're called the Millamanians and we're all about feminism and fairness.

It was real fun :)

"What I Am Needs No Excuses "

Meet my new religion :
http://carlinazenvampirism.blogspot.com/

:)

(Blog Title: I Am What I Am - John Barrowman)

"Worry Often Gives A Small Thing A Big Shadow, Worry Bankrupts The Spirit."

Why do I worry so much when Niall goes out drinking?? It worries be half to death...

Advice? Please...

:(

(Blog Title: Shadow Of Lucifer, Wings Of Christ by PermanentJetlag)

"I've Got A House In The Back Of My Head, But I Can't Find A Permanent Resident, But The Market's Down And The Area's Not So Good These Days"

Just a quickie to say HELLO. People haven't been active on the comment front recently... or the blogging front for that matter. Hoping everyone's okay!

So... I'm missing Niall a lot ... but I'm seeing him soon. The weeks go really quickly now! It's a good thing.

I'm earning a bit of money in the next few weeks... hey, it's my turn to be the bank now :)

This week I haven't done much... Monday was a quietish day. Tuesday we went into town and I bought fairy wings :G Fairies are a big part of my creativeness at the moment. Plus it was the birthday party of one of the children I babysit today and we were invited. It was pirate and fairy fancy dress... - think Peter Pan - it was quite fun actually. I love dressing up.
Wednesday we went to home ed group and me and Emily played pretend games in the woods. It's lovely to be able to shrink to my childhood again.
Thursday was election day. Mum went to vote and I went with her... and I got asked if I was voting ! It really made my morning... then I went to buy a lottery ticket and got asked for I.D... that ruined the mood.
Friday I went swimming with Emily and then stayed at her house. We had a proper fun sleep over.. girly chats and ice cream and music... it was amazing.
Saturday I slept the entire afternoon!! I was so tired!!

And today I went to Youth Theatre. I need to stop wearing red to drama... the sweatpatches are huge :L :G
Cough. Cough.

Anyway, off to watch Friends

Toodles x

(Blog Title: Poison by All Time Low)

"I Can't See Your Star. How Can The Darkness Feel So Wrong? And I'm Alone Now."

This is a monologue I have written by adapting the last three pages of Godchild : Book 8. There were only a few lines to work with so I think I've done pretty well. This will be my monologue at drama if we do them. I already know most of it off by heart.

Godchild: The Ending

Scene: Dominic Crehador recounting seeing Cain and Riff’s corpses.
Type: Monologue
Book: 8
Characters: Dominic Crehador.

Dominic:
That day still stands so vividly in my mind. It was over six years ago, and yet it feels as though only days have passed. I know not whether telling Mary Weather the truth about her brother’s death all those years ago is the right thing to do. She has still not managed to get over it. I know not whether telling her that I heard her brother’s voice after death is a good thing or not. Reflecting back on that day – that incident at the gates of Hell – I can no longer remember whether I used my powers as a medium to hear it, or whether they were actual words. They seemed so... real. But I know for certain that I received this ring – Cain’s cousin Suzette’s ring – and that ‘feeling’. That feeling of a bond never broken.
The sight when I stumbled into those ruins – that tomb – the sight that I saw that day... it was neither that of a Master and servant, nor a sight of dependency. And of course it was not about love. I shall most likely never be able to forget the sight of something so eternal. It was too dreamlike... Lord I wish it was a dream. He was stuck-up and snooty, but he was still a friend. They would still be here if it were a dream. I still cannot believe it after all these years, because at that moment when I stumbled into the tomb, much like when I first met the Earl, Cain was so self-confident and even a little arrogant. He possessed a balance of devilishness and holiness that could fascinate those around him in an instant. Yes, even at that moment, as though he were going to an evening ball in London – unchangingly – no matter what trials he had faced, he continued as gracefully as ever to smile. He held out his hand to me and said, ‘Take care of her for me, Crehador. Tell Oscar if he so much as hurts her in one way I will forever haunt him. Stand back, Crehador, but remain present. You owe me this, Charlatan.’ I can’t help smiling at that. He was always so stubborn.
No, I don’t think I will tell Miss. Mary Weather all of this. I shall bare it in my heart until the day my soul leaves this body. Mary doesn’t need to know this... I am glad to bare it for her.
Cain and Riff will remain eternally bound forever. As it always should be.


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