"I'm Sorry I Can't Be Perfect"

Just a song dedicated to my Daddy :-

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect


By Simple Plan

SEE THE SONG OF THE WEEK TOWARDS THE TOP OF THE BLOG FOR THE SONG & IT'S VIDEO

It's for a particular reason, but it kinda hurts to go too much into it, so please just read these lyrics and appreciate ... :)

"But Uh-Oh Those Summer Nights."

I gladly welcome in the Summer and I hope you'll join me! Usually in the past I've been hateful towards the summer - I hated getting hot and sweaty and bothered, heck, still do. But I've discovered four little things that are going to make this summer so much better. Number 1 : Deoderant - super strong, anti persperant! Number 2 : Aldi's Brasseries' Shandy - god that stuff is nice, and hardly any alcohol. Number 3 : A diet to lessen my stomach and thighs - it's called 'No Bread!' And Number 4 : Bikini's and thin skirts - very helpful. Never before have I dared to wear a bikini, but today I bought a lovely 50's style one, kinda like that which Katy Perry wears on the cover of her album. I haven't tried it on yet, but hopefully i'll feel confident in it. Oh, and a bonus Number 5 : Venus disposable razors... very very VERY helpful for days when I want to lay in my cossie and sunbathe!

Bring on the sunshine!!


(Blog Title: Summer Nights - Grease)

"Don't You Bring Around A Cloud To Rain On My Parade!"

Heya :)

I have a LOT to tell you, but not a lot I can write online I'm afraid... :( shame. Erm, what have I been up to?
Not much really. I went to home ed group yesterday and we held a HomeEdGroup Election. I was in a party with Emily.

We're called the Millamanians and we're all about feminism and fairness.

It was real fun :)

"What I Am Needs No Excuses "

Meet my new religion :
http://carlinazenvampirism.blogspot.com/

:)

(Blog Title: I Am What I Am - John Barrowman)

"Worry Often Gives A Small Thing A Big Shadow, Worry Bankrupts The Spirit."

Why do I worry so much when Niall goes out drinking?? It worries be half to death...

Advice? Please...

:(

(Blog Title: Shadow Of Lucifer, Wings Of Christ by PermanentJetlag)

"I've Got A House In The Back Of My Head, But I Can't Find A Permanent Resident, But The Market's Down And The Area's Not So Good These Days"

Just a quickie to say HELLO. People haven't been active on the comment front recently... or the blogging front for that matter. Hoping everyone's okay!

So... I'm missing Niall a lot ... but I'm seeing him soon. The weeks go really quickly now! It's a good thing.

I'm earning a bit of money in the next few weeks... hey, it's my turn to be the bank now :)

This week I haven't done much... Monday was a quietish day. Tuesday we went into town and I bought fairy wings :G Fairies are a big part of my creativeness at the moment. Plus it was the birthday party of one of the children I babysit today and we were invited. It was pirate and fairy fancy dress... - think Peter Pan - it was quite fun actually. I love dressing up.
Wednesday we went to home ed group and me and Emily played pretend games in the woods. It's lovely to be able to shrink to my childhood again.
Thursday was election day. Mum went to vote and I went with her... and I got asked if I was voting ! It really made my morning... then I went to buy a lottery ticket and got asked for I.D... that ruined the mood.
Friday I went swimming with Emily and then stayed at her house. We had a proper fun sleep over.. girly chats and ice cream and music... it was amazing.
Saturday I slept the entire afternoon!! I was so tired!!

And today I went to Youth Theatre. I need to stop wearing red to drama... the sweatpatches are huge :L :G
Cough. Cough.

Anyway, off to watch Friends

Toodles x

(Blog Title: Poison by All Time Low)

"I Can't See Your Star. How Can The Darkness Feel So Wrong? And I'm Alone Now."

This is a monologue I have written by adapting the last three pages of Godchild : Book 8. There were only a few lines to work with so I think I've done pretty well. This will be my monologue at drama if we do them. I already know most of it off by heart.

Godchild: The Ending

Scene: Dominic Crehador recounting seeing Cain and Riff’s corpses.
Type: Monologue
Book: 8
Characters: Dominic Crehador.

Dominic:
That day still stands so vividly in my mind. It was over six years ago, and yet it feels as though only days have passed. I know not whether telling Mary Weather the truth about her brother’s death all those years ago is the right thing to do. She has still not managed to get over it. I know not whether telling her that I heard her brother’s voice after death is a good thing or not. Reflecting back on that day – that incident at the gates of Hell – I can no longer remember whether I used my powers as a medium to hear it, or whether they were actual words. They seemed so... real. But I know for certain that I received this ring – Cain’s cousin Suzette’s ring – and that ‘feeling’. That feeling of a bond never broken.
The sight when I stumbled into those ruins – that tomb – the sight that I saw that day... it was neither that of a Master and servant, nor a sight of dependency. And of course it was not about love. I shall most likely never be able to forget the sight of something so eternal. It was too dreamlike... Lord I wish it was a dream. He was stuck-up and snooty, but he was still a friend. They would still be here if it were a dream. I still cannot believe it after all these years, because at that moment when I stumbled into the tomb, much like when I first met the Earl, Cain was so self-confident and even a little arrogant. He possessed a balance of devilishness and holiness that could fascinate those around him in an instant. Yes, even at that moment, as though he were going to an evening ball in London – unchangingly – no matter what trials he had faced, he continued as gracefully as ever to smile. He held out his hand to me and said, ‘Take care of her for me, Crehador. Tell Oscar if he so much as hurts her in one way I will forever haunt him. Stand back, Crehador, but remain present. You owe me this, Charlatan.’ I can’t help smiling at that. He was always so stubborn.
No, I don’t think I will tell Miss. Mary Weather all of this. I shall bare it in my heart until the day my soul leaves this body. Mary doesn’t need to know this... I am glad to bare it for her.
Cain and Riff will remain eternally bound forever. As it always should be.


Let me know what you think to it :)


(Blog Title: Your Star by Evanescence)