"If You Cut Me, I Suppose I Would Bleed The Colour Of The Evening Stars."

My 'friends' suck. So basically this is what happened....

Tess had a go at Niall for no reason a few days back... Tuesday time. So we didn't speak for days. And then at Youth Theatre I ignored her because I realised I was fuming with her still..... And then Friday night I fell out with her on MSN... so Thommie sent me a facebook-email having a go at me. He said that I was a snotty cow who needed to sort out her priorities. He said he didn't like Niall either and that I was stupid for believing in this relationship. "He wouldn't be there as a shoulder to cry on when it all fell apart." I had a panic attack after that and Dad nearly through my laptop at the wall in anger, which would not have been good as it hold all my future career!
Instead we talked and he blocked 'the Frightful Four' out of my life completely. I shut down my facebook and started a new msn. It even went so far as to change my mobile number. What they were doing to me, all of them, was effectively cyber bullying.

I have Niall and Emily and my family and I don't need anyone else to be perfectly honest. Niall has been so supportive, and so have two of his friends.

The only problem now really is Youth Theatre for the next three weeks. I've decided to take the Emo-kid-in-the-corner,-alone-except-for-headphones. I will be professional towards Thom in my group, but besides that they can flook off, tbh.


On the brightside, though - Percy Jackson = BRILLIANT!!!

XX

P.S: 'Supergirl' will hopefully be posted as a video some time soon :) x

(Blog Title: The Technicolour Phase by Owl City)

"Best Friends, Ex Friends 'Til The End"

So I officially have only Niall and Emily as friends. Basically, the rest of them are bitches and to be honest, I'm better off without them.

So yeah.

Not a good day...

Sigh.

"Will You Walk A Little Faster?" Said A Whiting To A Snail, "There's A Porpoise Close Behind Us, Treading On My Tail.."

Not much to say really... I just thought I'd write something. Anything really.

Youth Theatre tonight was odd. I didn't talk to Tess.. still epically PISSED off with her. Thommie wasn't there, so I was stuck with four 12 year olds who are at the stage where they find swearwords and sexual references tremendously funny. I was literally dying inside. ...

Sometimes You Think You'll Be Fine By Yourself, 'Cause A Dream Is A Wish That You Make All Alone

Supergirl, I Wish You'd Stay

Little girl with the amber eyes
Take those dreams and make them fly.
Take them to the stars up above,
Secretly wishing they had someone to love.

Oh, someone like you.
Everyone wishes they knew someone like you.

Supergirl with your head in the clouds
So many will want you to come back down.
But I say don't, I say stay
Because in time you'll make your own way.
You'll draw out your plans, make your own path,
Supergirl with the world in your hands.
I say stay, I say stay.

Little girl with the high, high hopes
Take those wishes and make them come true.
Take them all the way to the sun,
Secretly dreaming he knew someone,

Oh, someone like you.
Everyone wishes they knew someone like you.

Supergirl with your head in the clouds
So many will want you to come back down.
But I say don't, I say stay
Because in time you'll make your own way.
You'll draw out your plans, make your own path,
Supergirl with the world in your hands.
I say stay, I say stay.
You'll make your own way.


A song I wrote while listening to an awesome guy called Christopher Ingle-Drew (i.e NeverShoutNever!). To start with it was just the chorus, but then it started scripting itself out to make the skeleton of my good friend Emily. Emily already has a song - Cookie Dough Conscience - but that one's more like a poem. This one is a song with music on guitar and me singing with my terrible, terrible voice. :)

Commento please-o. xxxxx

(Blog Title : Gift Of A Friend by Demi Lovato)

Can You Sleep, Can You Breathe, When You Know What You've Done. Tell Me Where Will You Run?

The only people who follow this blog will know that recently I have got my book published. For some reason it's not showing up on the website it is set to sell on, for some reason... but if anyone wants to read it I have a copy you could borrow.



My Immortal
When Ruth moved to the small quiet town of Indigo she didn't expect her life to change. But then she didn't expect to get attacked by a werewolf, to be saved by a tall handsome stranger or to make friends with one of the most dangerous Vampires of all time. Can she work out where her loyalties lie before it's too late?

My Immortal starts out following Ruth Twilight and her thoughts. Ruth is a shy and keeps-herself-to-herself type purebred Vampire (born blooded). She feeds off animals and never puts a toe out of line. But then she runs into Amaya Kasumi - who is a hypnotising, beautiful, rebellious and seductive Japanese Vampire. Amaya is difficult to decipher - one minute she can be nicey nicey, the next she'll literally rip out your jugular. But Amaya has a secret in her past that has never been brought to the surface. Until the two Vampires meet Cedric, who saves them from a werewolf attack. Cedric Moitie-Lune is a trained Werewolf hunter and is very handsome. Ruth falls for him immediately and the two of them hit it off. Amaya - sick of their lovey dovey stuff - wanders off into the woods and gets kidnapped by Raoul Tailor, the werewolf. Raoul has been hunted by Cedric for decades and wants his revenge. He employs Amaya to dig up the dirt on the pretty boy and Amaya obliges.
But then Cedric helps her dig up the secrets of her past that have been troubling her for centuries and finally she knows who she is. She is torn between keeping her honour with Raoul, or her friendship with Cedric. She decides to visit the Vampire God who is well known for his gambling personality. Isten - the Vampire God - surprises Amaya with the appearance of Alexander Cody, the Victorian Lord that was once and still is Amaya's one true love. He died in a housefire years ago. The reunited pair have only a few hours to catch up however, as Isten throws them into an arena with the Elukka - giant beasts made completely of nightmares.

And the rest, you'll have to find out yourself by reading the book.

I'm posting this now because I'm working on the sequel. 'My Immortal' is the first in a series of three books.

#1. My Immortal
An introduction to the main characters and the villain-y that encases the full plot.

#2. Dancer In The Dark
6 months on from My Immortal. Amaya has returned to the town where she first met Alexander and she has started to go mad. She is forgetting the secretive oath of Vampire's and begins to kill openly. Until she meets Dylan Jackson. Dylan is a Vampire Hunter, recently enrolled. He is a nervous wreck and blunders his word frequently. Amaya takes pity on him and the pair set out to track down Isten and seek revenge. Amaya wants to teach Dylan the vampire ways so that he can go down in history - and hopefully see a flaw in Isten's build-up. The other three; Cedric, Ruth and Raoul; went their seperate ways from Amaya at the end of My Immortal and have spent 6 months devoting themselves to justice. But then they get wind of the true Vampire Hunter trophy - Amaya Kasumi. They just have to warn her and set out to find her.

#3. Waking The Demon
Carried straight on from the end of Dancer In The Dark, the gang head for Pahenki Mountain in persuit of Isten to stop his evil campaign once and for all. On the way they run into Walligal, a Voodoo prince with astonishing powers. He helps them in their battle for justice. But who will win?

The Immortal series started out originally as a short story that I was writing for my friend. My Immortal is dedicated to her for being a neverending shower of unknown support.

I'm hoping if several people read this series it could become a radio show, tv show or maybe (gasp) even a film.

But I need all your help ... so get plugging!! Please :) xxx

P.S : I need a character idea for Dancer In The Dark. Amaya and Dylan go for a walk through an old town and bump into somebody. I need YOU, yes, YOU, to create that someone :) xx

(Blog Title: Ghost Of Love by The Rasmus)

Underdog! Just Look At The Mess You've Made. It's Such A Shame (A Shame) We Had To Find Out This Way.

Amazing the ways we find out who is loyal and who isn't. So much for BFFLADAE.. huh? No, a different one this time. One who's been supportive and friendly forever. Until now.

Can I ask... though... what the HELL is everyones problem with Niall! He's such a nice guy and I know he cares about me so much. Why can't my friends be HAPPY for me? Why can't they bite their fucing tongues!!! If they have a problem get a stress ball! Jesus!

Let me make one thing clear though. Niall is my boyfriend and my soulmate and we fit together like puzzle pieces. We're made for each other. Two bodies, one soul. If anyone has a problem with this or him then please.. PLEASE... tell me now. Because then I will know the truth.

"We don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. If it's real we'll make it through, cause all I need is you. They say don't waste your time, they're obviously blind. So let's forget the words the thoughts they put into your head. Don't give up just yet." (All I Need Is You by The Click 5)

(Blog Title: Underdog by YouMeAtSix)

Boomerang My Head Back To The City I Grew Up In. Again & Again, Forever A Lake Effect Kid.

The train journey from Lincolnshire to Cumberland was fun. Niall had Dr. Pepper and went more than a tad silly. It was hilarious watching him on a sugar high though :L Even when he threw peanuts at me until eventually (intended or not) one went down my top and made me scream. It was definitely a very tiring day though.
On the Wednesday we stayed home while Mum and DJ went to a theatre workshop, then in the evening went to the theatre to watch DJ's story come to life with puppets. It was a fun evening, even if Ni didn't enjoy it much.
On Thursday we moseyed around the house a bit.... then went back to the theatre to watch a comedy which I found funny, even if Ni didn't.
On Friday we went for a walk down to the marsh and had a good old talk about future stuffs. I had a breakdown in the field which was totally uncontrollable.

On Saturday.. Ni went home. It was a very emotional day, tbh. A lot of tears and heartache.

But I'll see him again on my Birthday !!! Only 5 weeks and 6 days to go... I can't wait.

(Blog Title: Lake Effect Kid by Fall Out Boy)

"I'm Just The Man On The Balcony Singin' Nobody Will Ever Remember Me. Rejoice, Rejoice And Fall To Your Knees."

A sad sad day for me. Fall Out Boy officially broke up. So this blog post is in memory of THE best band ever to live. For years your sweet music has filled my eardrums and rocked my vocal chords. You have inspired me to dream, you have given me confidence and mostly you have made me very happy. You will never be forgotten.

R.I.P my princes of Rock, R.I.P.

















Sugar, We May Be Going Down. But We Are Most CERTAINLY Not Out!


FOREVER

(Blog Title: From Now On, We Are Enemies by Fall Out Boy)

The Highways Jammed With Broken Heroes On a Last Chance Power Drive

First of all, Happy Valentines Day!

I've been staying at Niall's since Friday and its been fun. Me and my Dad got the train from Carlisle to Newcastle, then Newcastle to Doncaster, then Doncaster to Gainsbourough. It was a long and complicated journey but we made it eventually. I love trains, the way you don't have to worry about anything once you're on the right train. I could sit with my mp3 player belting out 30 Seconds to Mars and read my Kerrang ! Magazine in complete bliss.

Saturday - yesterday - we went into Lincoln to do some shopping (as Ni got a bonus of £100 from his college for getting good grades and goo attendance!) and it was fun. We met up with my friend Aaron, who I havent seen since April last year and who is an absolute legend. He's about 6''3' and loud :L. We went to Primark and I got SHOES!! To keep in with myy 1950's theme of dress. We also met up with Niall's friends La Toya and Tom (Tom is like 6''8'!) and went for lunch with them - it was proper grown up and amazing! We walked past a student protest and Aaron made fun of it - was so funny!! when we got back to Niall's we bought ben & jerry's from Tesco because I've never had some (it's not really anything special to be perfectly honest) and watched Childs Play. Niall bought me a dress with his bonus money, much to my argument. He spoils me something rotten :( (not that I'm complaining :G) http://www.bluebanana.com/mercy-ramona-stripe-print-dress-blackred-p-78787.html

Today we're at Niall's dad's house. We've just been out for Lunch and then ten pin bowling - I beat Niall!!! And I keep rubbing it in :L Now we're sat in the dining room while Niall gets his brother past a certain point in the xBox Avatar game.

Will blog soon xxxx

Toodles XD

(Blog Title: Born To Run by Bruce Springsteen)

You Look Like An Angel, Walk Like An Angel, Talk Like An Angel, But I Got Wise. You're The Devil In Disguise..!

“It’s not like you to say sorry, I was waiting on a different story. This time I’m mistaken for handing you a heart worth breaking.” How You Remind Me - Nickelback (Just thought it was fitting)


So Charli and I are friends again. All I was really waiting for was an apology – which she never gives out – and she finally apologised so it’s all good. She’s changed a bit – got more rebellious and much more grown up. It seems we’ve moved on into the next chapter in our lives, especially when it comes to boys. Before it was just girly talk about who fancies who and celebrities who are fit. Now we both have boyfriends and the talk gets gritty and deep. I’m not quite ready to forgive her fully and trust her wholly yet, but I’ll get there. Niall hates her guts, but I can live with that.



On a brighter note, I’ve lost 4 pounds and still counting whilst eating mostly vegetables and fruit. Long may it last!

Hope you’re all good xxx

(P.S - I love Elvis Muchly!!)

(Blog Title: Devil In Disguise by Elvis Presley)

All The Little Birdies On Jaybird Street, Love To Hear The Robin Go Tweet Tweet Tweet.

I would just like to give a special shout out to my friend Marilyn. I haven't been friends with her very long, only about an hour before I had to leave, but we formed a strong bond. Here is a picture of her... Yes. Marilyn is a Robin. And she was named Marilyn (after Marilyn Monroe, NOT Marilyn Manson (who is named after Marilyn Monroe.. haha) because I promised her she would be a star. She hasn't had much feedback on my DeviantART so I decided to post her here. Give her some love people!!
Thanks :) x